Alice sighed wearily, “I think you might do something better with the time,” she said, “than waste it in asking riddles that have no answers.”
“If you knew Time as well as I do,” said the Hatter, “you wouldn’t talk about wasting it. It’s him.”
“I don’t know what you mean,” said Alice.
“Of course you don’t!” the Hatter said, tossing is head contemptuously. “I dare say you never even spoke to Time!”
“Perhaps not,” Alice cautiously replied: “but I know I have to beat time when I learn music.”
“AH! That accounts for it,” said the Hatter. “He won’t stand beating. Now, if you only kept on good terms with him, he’d do almost anything you liked with the clock.” …
…“Is that the way you manage?” Alice asked.
The Hatter shook his head mournfully. “Not I!” he replied. “We quarreled last March.”
Imagine… *wink
(Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll :: Chapter 7)
Grace :: May 15, 2018
It’s time to put this day to bed. It was overwhelming. And exhausting.
I can do a pretty good job of compartmentalizing most of the time. But today, I broke. In the middle of the day. In my boss’ office. And then the rest of the day, moments would pass where the emotions would over take me again. On the way home. Eating cereal for dinner. At Annie’s concert. Laying here in bed. Looking at pictures. Watching TV. Writing my post.
Sometimes the hardness of cancer is just too much to hold. And I’m thankful for the grace to give in.
A Small Win (But a Win Nonetheless) :: May 15, 2019
Today was kind of a benign day. My side effects felt pretty minimal – had a low-grade headache all throughout the day, only a few dizzy/nausea spells, some minor heartburn, manageable achy-ness, only a slightly upset stomach… the worst side effects for the day are those damn hot flashes and my swollen ankles (SO annoying).
I’d say this is a small win, but a win nonetheless. While I still feel these side effects, I’m going to be grateful for the days where the intensity is lower than normal. Because, well, that matters a whole lot.
Now to sleep and hope that my sleep follows the same pattern as my whole day…
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